It is everywhere
It happens everyday
We've grown up with the fact that everyone will eventually die
Yet, why does it seem so shocking

I have experienced quite a few deaths of close family friends and family in my short life. The first was when I was around 4 years old. I have grown some what accustomed to it...

Others have not yet experienced a death. Such people are shocked and surprised when they see it, almost as if it was the first time they've heard of it.

This is actually fairly normal as death is something that seems to take away what people love most. Family, Friends, Pets and the such.

But is death really all that bad....
It ends peoples lives
What if the person is tired and just wants to rest
What if the person has already led a fulfilling life and accepts it
What if the person is just so sick and tired of the world we live in and call home

There is nothing we can do to stop it
We brought this upon ourselves

Support those who experience a death
Don't think that they shouldn't cry over such matters
Let them know that you will always be there for them

It is everywhere
It happens everyday
We've grown up with the fact that everyone will eventually die
Understand why it is so shocking

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It's always good to have friends

Friends that would support you whenever you were going through a hard time
Friends that would defend you save you when you fall into trouble

They let you call them at ungodly hours if something tragic or just absolutely terrifying happens
They will be there when ever you are in need though they may not know why
They are people everyone should cherish as some will be friends for life

Neutrals are people who think clearly in any situation
Neutrals are people who make unbiased decisions based on the evidence they are presented with

They have both friends and enemies and have an alliance with other neutrals
They usually don't take sides and can be trusted with information though most don't believe in them until there is evidence
They have a balanced way of viewing the world and are "made" when they have suffered terrible fates yet bounce back

Enemies are neither friends or neutrals
Enemies are out to hurt you and the ones close to you

They are ruthless and sometimes will stop at nothing until they have succeeded in destroying your life
They can be back-stabbing bitches that will seem to love you and you tell them everything but then they use that to ruin your life
They often come out from no-where.... they could be anyone ranging from a child-hood friend to a girl/boy you just randomly met

Its always good to have friends.
Its nice to see a point from the neutrals view.
Its never good to have enemies.

I am a neutral but what about you. What prompted me to write this is the fact that some people don't know that they have so many enemies. They can be crawling at your feet and you could not know it.

On the other hand, some people don't know how many friends they have. What I have observed is that some disregard their friends in times of need. Remember your friends as they are bound to make you smile again.

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Currently in english doing travel writing.... its so boring and pointless.

joey is next to me also blogging bout who knows wat. shirely is next to me

SHIRLEY: IM SEXY. No im kidding okay. HIIIIIIIIIIIII- I am officially mentioned on Maggie's blog : )

yes shirley. this is so boring dammit. laurel was like stalking around the classroom but now she's left so now we can bludge in peace.

my internet is dead so i can't do anything at home unfortunetly... attemping to steal friends^^

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What happened...

Just no-more than 2 months ago, everything was fine. Your smiles were real, your attitude was beautiful and your future was clear. Now... your smiles are full of deceit, your attitude just sucks and your future is dark.

How could have this happened...

Its not the first time I saw someone I considered a friend fall into shame, but its the first time its happened so quickly. Before, I even envied you for your life, wishing that mine was some what like yours but now...

My sorrow has turned to anger
My sadness to determination...

Anger
at your stupidity...
at myself for not stopping you...

Determination
to never fall to your level...
to never let anyone close to me fall to your level...
to never stand there and watch it happen right before my eyes...

Could I have stopped your descent to darkness...
No, you never trusted me... you were only concerned about what was happening in your life... You never realized that I was watching you all along...
You never realized that I was attempting to help you...

Now your fall has destroyed many bright lights...
You never considered how your fall would affect your friends and family...
You never considered how your fall would affect your present and future...
You never considered any other person's feelings.

You rely on one person...
I sympathize with her...
For I do not think that you realize what you are doing to her own friendships and future...

Selfishly, you are binding that one person you trust to you...
Selfishly, you are destroying every other relationship she has...

You think that she should help you...
You think that she should listen to you...
You think that she should understand you...

You're wrong.
No-one could ever understand what is happening in your twisted mind
No-one could ever save you from what you will become

But mark my words...
No matter how dark you have become...
I will NOT let you drag another person with you...
NEVER is there to be a person that will fall into darkness before my eyes

My own selfish wish WILL be fulfilled...
No-matter what I may lose
No- matter what I may gain...

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Second Chance by Shinedown

"Tell my mother, tell my father
I've done the best i can
To make them realize
This is my life, i hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance.

Please don't cry one tear for me
I'm not afraid of what i have to day
This is my one and only voice
So listen close, it's only for today"

Sometimes your parents can be oppressive and annoying
Sometimes your parents just don't understand
Sometimes your parents drive you nuts and you just want to shout at them

You may think that you'd rather not have your parents
You may think that life would be so much easier without them
You may think that you could be free without them

But always remember that they love you
They may have retarded ways of showing it
And some of you may not even believe it
But they gave birth to you and you are their own flesh and blood

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yes, i know you hate me
yes, i know you despise me
yes, i know that you think i stole your friends
yes, i know that you're gonna think of some way to bitch about me

but guess what, I DUN FUCKEN CARE!!!

you're too wrapped up in your own little world to notice that I'm not the one stealing your friends... it's the way you treat them ever since a month ago

it's your own attitude towards everything that is distancing yourself towards everyone else. like tonnes of people, you are changing. only that you are changing in the wrong direction.

we tried to stop you,
we tried to help you,
we tried to save you.

but you just brushed us off. now we've given up.

no, i dun hate you
no, i dun care if you dun believe me
no, i dun mind if you bitch about me
no, i dun give a shit if you take your friends back

but there is only one way of doing that.

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FUCKEN HELL!!! I DUNNO WHO YOU ARE BUT U GOT SOME GUTS! I HATE PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT THEY ARE THE GREATEST AND THAT ANYONE ELSE WHO CRIES OR WATEVA IS WEAK!!

GET A BLOODY LIFE!!! IF U HATE THEM THEN DEAL WITH IT!! JUST BECAUSE YOU HATE THEM, DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE NEED TO KNOW! STOP COMMENTING ON C-BOXES BOUT HOW U THINK SOMEONE IS ATTENTION SEEKING!!

STOP COMMENTING ON MY FRIENDS C-BOXES!!! IF U WANT TO CONTINUE BEING SUCH A FUCKEN BITCH, THEN TELL EVERYONE WHO YOU ARE. PUT YOUR NAME FOR ONCE AND ADMIT TO IT YOUR FREAKING LOW LIFE.

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I slept in, my bro slept in, my mum slept in... so as a result... I missed the normal train and had to catch the 8:05 by myself. At Epping, saw Dilys standing there waiting for someone and was on the phone, contemplated shouting out to her but decided not to.. newaz, when I reached Hornsby, i walked past a bread shop and saw Genie and Danni. MY GOD YOU GUYS ARE SLOW!!!

The day went on like any other. Maths, Science, Geo then PDHPE. at the end of skool, we walked out and it was POURING!! i had an umbrella so i was relatively dry but others such as Genie and Lornia got soaked. On the train we were like yelling and then as other skools got on, Lornia was like, "WHY THE FUCKEN HELL AREN'T THEY WET?!?!"

Kept doing this at like every stop. some stupid ruse ppl came on and where like yelling at us in chinese as we left. no-one else heard but when i told them, they got epically pissed.

Doing maths hw and waiting for a certain email from a certain someone. (if u r reading this, I NEED THE FREAKEN INFORMATION 2DAY!!!)

Sleepy, dead and annoyed.

GOOD LUCK TO PPL WHO ARE IN ATHLETICS TOMORROW!!
CHARITY!! U SCREWED UR LEG! *cries*

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This is dedicated to Jane's blog which lasted for like 3 days. D:
Got deleted because of rents but never mind!

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OMG, it's likefreeeezing! i'm wearing like 2 jackets and i'm still cold!! ><" I FINISHED VD!!!! SO HAPPY!!!! good luck to ppl still doing their vd stuff! This morning, i caught the later train as Genie was late and Danni wanted to wait for Genie so i decided to tag along. We were like freezing on the platform and Danni decided to call Genie. When Genie picked up the fone, Danni like started yelling into the fone so obviously everyone started staring. Yes Danni, u sure luv to attract attention on Eastwood station... especially when u started dacking ur pants ^^ newaz, Genie came and was like dead.... she slept on the train and everything them we went to woolis Danni was buying nailpolish remover and took 4eva to chose so Genie was like "Okay, Dani, which colour do you like better? Pink, green, clear?? Hmmmmmmm.....herbal... moisturiser.... okay lets go with that one."

so after Genie chose for Danni, they took ages to work the self-serve thingy. we walked to skool so when i walked into to 312, everyone was like

"WOW MAGGIE!!! I THOUGHT YOU JIGGED!!!"

i wanted to... but my mum and dad was like "WAKE UP!!! TIME FOR SKOOL!!!"
and that obviously ment that i was going to skool even if they had to drag me there =="

Got science results back... epically failed! *sigh*
going to sleep now! ^^ dead after staying up till 12 last night

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right now i am 打边炉!!! very 暖 and yummy!! ^^ waiting for the water to re-boil... ALL WARM NOW!!! YAY!!!! 鲍鱼，豆腐鱼蛋 and 青口。

no-one is anywhere near finished for VD. So far, the total cost is $11000 so budget is not a problem. ^^

slowly editing the template of the blog... it'll take awhile. dedications will take awhile and so will everything else.

now back to eating!! ^^

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hey everyone!! yes i got a blog all thanks to the lovely genie who spent her time on the template and everything!! YAY!!!!! LOVE YOU GENIE!!

i'm dying under pressure. damn foster an her stupid study guide and essay ==" she told us to hand it in AFTER the goddamn exam ><" VD is due on friday so i'm screwed!! TT.TT

newayz, its late and mum is once again yelling at me (from upstairs- yes, our loud voices run through the family) to get off the computer. cya tomorrow ppls!

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